You don’t have to Pull the trigger. You only have to close your heart
I never liked my father, he had his issues and his energy was just ‘off”. He wasn’t allowed closer than an arms length away from me. The reason I moved to California was to get as far away as I could. At some point I started to have compassion for him. Luckily I became friends with him way before he died.
The day I stepped into his reality and realized I wouldn’t have ever wanted his life, he went from being an absolute schmuck to me realizing he didn’t do so badly after all.
He didn’t have all the resources we have now. No spiritual books, no self help books, no yoga or meditation. No looking at the ego-mind and working on his issues. There was a taboo around going to a psychologist in the 1960’s through the 1980’s, and so he didn’t stick with it.
He, like many people, was adrift in his ego, actually thinking all that WAS him. Many of us have accepted the idea that this world is a dream, or an illusion. Even Quantum Physics is saying we are in a simulation. In Hinduism it is called Maya. Even if we ‘get’ this we still think we are these bodies, with our own issues, trying to clear it all up so we can become enlightened. Some version of that.
Even accepting that knowledge, we have a little bit more discernment and allow ourselves our healing, or releasing of our issues, so we can wake up from this dream.
But do we afford others the same grace, or do you find yourself still upset and blaming the world?
There’s a lot going on in the world and it’s easy to blame. But when does the blaming stop?
For me and my father it was when I realized I would never have wanted one second of his childhood. He was wounded as all of us are about something. So in stepping into his world and seeing it differently I then was able to see that everyone is living in the world of their own suffering, I don’t like to suffer, I’m sure others don’t either.
In the movie The Shack, (if you haven’t seen it, I would suggest you do) It’s about a man who has undergone a huge loss in his life and is filled with rage, blame, hatred, and judgement. There’s a scene in the movie where he is speaking with a Being representing wisdom. She shows him the lineage of abuse from one generation to the next. The endless stream of ego involvement leading to broken hearts and lack of love. The point being, how can you judge another given their own personal history.
We never have to condone someone’s actions, (there are consequences to our actions), but how can you judge? That’s not up to us.
Plus judging makes the illusion real. Since this is an illusion, a dream, what happens in the dream is, well, a dream. A Course In Miracles (ACIM) states, as do many paths, that we are dreaming a dream of separation while safely at home with God. (Which is right here, right now, in our right perception).
This is the ego’s dream of separation. This is NOT God’s dream of separation. God doesn’t separate. It knows nothing of separation therefore knows nothing of the dream. That’s why it would behoove us to wake up and see that we’ve been stuck in the thought process of illusion.
When we are in blame mode we are with our ego. There’s a lot going on in the world right now, plenty to blame. It’s really too much. There’s literally nothing you can do to fix the whole thing. Plus how do you fix a dream? (This doesn’t mean nothing’s worth doing. It means do what you do from Love and compassion).
ACIM says we are all either expressing love or calling out for love. Way before I began studying The Course, I could tell my dad was trying to be loving, he was wanting to be loved as well. But he was met with huge amounts of rejection from his family. He didn’t know how to express love. Every action he did was a call for love.
Anytime we are in judgement mode or blame mode, we too are calling out for love.
Everyone on this planet judges….until we finally don’t. That’s the point of waking up.
There’s a lot of judgement going on in the world, this contributes to the chaos. You don’t have to pull a trigger to contribute to this mess, you just have to close your heart.
The world is designed to wake up from it. The more we judge it the more we make this real, and feel it’s our home. I don’t know about you, but this ain’t Home. Home is peace, love and joy. Yes, that can be found here as well, and in those moments when you do, you are Home.
What would it be like to stay Home even while seemingly in these bodies?
A Course In Waking Up to Inner Peace
Vishali Shahin B.S., R.N.
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